Can you not see what you have done?
I'm so broken and torn down
My soul has never felt so empty
Time has not healed this wound, but
time has never healed the past either..
I'm broken down into pieces
and I lost most of my pieces, and
still can't find them.
I'm holding myself together for moments,
for moments that are just for them,
but it is all a simple illusion, because
once they turn I fall apart again.
Send it away, bury my pain,
bury you, someone help me to forget
about the pain I keep feeling.
easily said than done, I'm not sure I can
keep on going...
Pain, pain, this endless cycle, the curse
is proved, the pain reiterates.
I cannot stress what I feel,
these words carry no healing..
All I can say is with you there's a meaning.
Leave me now..
Break me down..
I'm so cold...
All alone.
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Winter's almost here. my favorite season.
A time where I try to reinvent myself each year,
each year harder than before,
each winter full of tears, each winter full of happiness,
each winter I'm torn down over and over again,
each winter I think I will be better,
each winter expecting so much more,
each winter becoming spiritual,
each Ramadan praying and wishing for
nothing more than peace with myself,
each winter clinging onto the darkness with false hope,
looking at the light beneath my cloak of smiles and daydreams,
spunky remarks and sarcastic wit, hoping no one will notice,
knowing no one will, and that's all I want,
I don't think they'd like to take a look inside,
and if they did, they'd see self-laothe, they'd see
ugliness and confusion,
utter and meaningless self-abuse,
metaphors and riddles that could be used
for something good if only they understood.
So here I am again, staring at the new mirror in my room,
smiling because the dark corners of my mind,
are now here in my room, for me to be in, now a reality.
Lean against the wall, tired, weary, unhappy tears,
descending a stone face, broken and tired eyes
fogged up. Lie down.
Walk downstairs, smile on the face. Mom's happy.
This is how it should be. This is how it has to be.
Too ashamed
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Winter's coming about.
my favorite time of the year
each time I try to be a better person and I fail
each time I hold out hope that it'll get better
My favorite season.
Ramadan comes along, I pray all night,
I ask forgiveness, I ask for help,
I try to be a better person.
Winter's creeping about.
My favorite season.
Between the moments of joy,
the loud rock songs, and
the jokes in between,
you'd think I'd forget.
But no, you can never forget.
Behind all these surrealist dreams,
the dark eyes, and spunky remarks
I'm still trapped in a corner staring
at the world with pure disgust.
Ramadan is almost here
I'm still in the corner, but now I'm looking up,
up through my eyes, up towards the sky,
towards the star-studded black,
wondering when my miracle will descend unto me,
wondering how I can create myself over.
What is all this confusion, all these clouds,
everyone says they figured me out,
my response "Yes". but its never true.
Why do you think they're all so
different but they're all mine?
Because that is me, different in so many ways,
in ways I'm still trying to figure out.
They call me dark.
they call me happy.
they call me depressed.
they call me funny.
they call me sad.
they call me gothic.
they call me fun.
they call me optimistic.
they call me pessimistic.
Make up your mind.
I am everything and nothing and more.
Now they're confused
and I laugh at those who still think they've got it all figured out..
they have a long way to go.
Winter.
Still my favorite season.
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Being pushed along this darkened road,
I am forced to reiterate my past and all its
possibilities,
no matter what is going on,
they seem so oblivious to what I can see,
to what they can't see,
what they can't feel...
And everywhere I turn,
I am forgotten in my head, and all that
I have learned, seems so useless at the end.
And without my will I am pushed and pushed,
until eventually these tears turn into more,
and they turn to blood.
And I feel as though I am staring up at
everyone's places, never quite able to reach
that plateau of reality, my reality is never the same
as your reality.
My reality is harsh.
And everything that occurs, and passes me by,
is as black as a black hole in space,
as it swallows up all the light and everything in space,
I feel as though my happiness keeps running out,
and I try and try so hard to hold on to what little
seems to bring hope, but it only lasts a moment,
until it slowly fades into the black, with all I feel.
I'm being raped of all my joy,
and I'm telling you it all the time...
but why can't you understand me??
Why can't you hear me?
Why won't you hear me?
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Thankful for the given, yet yearning for the unknown,
hoping for the peace and more,
all this time a storm dwells deep within...
Try and stop it and you may be reeled in.
Pointing out my concern,
but I stare into faces of those who boldly
stare back with unknowing eyes that smile
with a snake of lies and mistrust.
Pretending all is clear, we lie just to keep
what once was so natural.
Your faithless pessimism drones out all
of what joy I had left in me,
and like poison it eats me up from the inside,
it's acidic course beginning to show on the outside.
Can you feel it?
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Lightening storms and confusing winds,
all seem to point at me again,
the cold and brutal reality of it all,
bleeds "Please save me",
Nowhere near the end of it all,
I feel as though, I might just fall,
wish I could, wish I did, but
with these words, I crumble again.
Oh.. somebody tell me...
why I feel this way?
Someone please help me,
tell me what I should do..
cuz I keep on doin' the same things!
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Forgotten, and feelin' so ashamed,
I'm sorry that I hurt ya, but
it's all the same again,
I can't keep apologizing, i kno
but I can't keep going on this way..
Oh somebody please wont you help me?
I am falling.. fast into the core,
I know I must fight but these words
are all I have, and to end it all, there's no plan.
Oh I don't kno.. Oh I don't know, Oh I don't know..
why...? why????
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Everything seems to have
another side, another feel, another
place that they go to when they are
down..
And sometimes looking at my reflection,
all I see is an illusion kept secret in me.
waiting for something, something even
the pain cannot stop or yeild.
But something else keeps it away,
something else in me,
and it's tiring to think it could be,
another force I cannot see hidden inside.
Because I'm tired of waiting,
tired of wondering, and tired of
thinking about what it could be.
And I just wanna lie down,
and not worry, not think, not feel,
I just wanna fall into a trance,
and never awaken..
And if things get worse,
I'm afraid something will snap,
and it may actually occur, care to
take the blame?
So leave me alone.
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The absence of light has its consequences,
and never has it been there for you,
so why do you hide out there,
there's nothing you should find there.
Leave your stories,
We've all experienced it well,
Or is the pain just too much?
You think you know the darkness.
You think you own it, disown it and
hear my cries, I've heard your's,
and experienced it as well.
Bleed laughter and not the pain,
Because soon you'll have no choice,
You'll be lured into the shadows,
and it will be harder to get out,
I told you this before
But if you find yourself,
hidden out of reach, come and
join me, because the darkness has
already plagued my world, with no one in it.
And it gets pretty lonely.
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Life's half-open doors and hidden paths,
have you confused and you wish,
it could be simpler, and maybe you
may find yourself along the way.
But the treacherous path you've chosen,
has lead you farther and farther away from yourself,
and you've forgotten the values you
once cherished, and lay down every night miserably.
Feelings have reached it's height,
and the mental breakdowns have intensified,
and sitting there, you bleed...
You bleed the pain they've brought upon you,
though they cannot see you bleed, for,
it is not a tangible feeling,
you still know they're the reason for it.
You look into yourself and wind up
just as confused as before.
all you know is that you've fallen..
Smile fallen angel.. someone loves you.
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Leaving it just like it always is..
Walk slowly through your mind,
figure it out carefully, this may be the last time.
You're sane for now, but it may cross the line.
And prepare for it because they're
waiting for you to make that move,
to fall into the ultimate abyss.
And the slightest, subtle moves
may throw you off balance as you
walk around with your mind unstable and
hopes down low.
You feel as though you're waiting,
and you wait but who told you that
losing hope would be good?
You're not sure what it is, but you've got
the greatest feeling about it, but
why can't you find it, it seems to be
moving from within your grasp everytime you
think you've finally found it.
What could it be?
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The world melts away when we're face to face
In this embrace
Eye to eye, it's so frightening
So enlightening
Painful, beautiful, mysterious
Baby, we're so delerious
And everything else that
I just can't put my finger on
Lip to lip, kiss to kiss
I really miss
You
Breath to breath
Cry to cry, and I'll ask why until I die
Fingers fit too perfect, whispers feel so magical
All this pain, tragical
I'll beat this sonnet up, until I've had enough
Have you?
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Lost together
In an architects field of corn
Hand-in-hand
In the crisp autumn air
The end is not near
And that’s ok
Enjoying time running together
Stopping only to embrace
Seconds and minutes and hours go by
Lost in a world of happiness
Together as one
One filled happiness, lost as one
Hoping to never find the way out
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With every twist and turn of your hunger
I know someday
You’ll eat me alive
Stop it
I know
You know
We know what you are doing
Stop it
I know
You know
We know you make me feel alive
With all of your breaths that you force me to breathe
I know someday
You’ll take mine
Ok keep going
I know
You know
We know how bad I want this
Ok keep going
I know
You know
We know we’re buying time
We know
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I'm the Neck turning your face towards the waves out in the sea
The Arms that lift your hands up to tilt them in the breeze
I am the Stars you count; no one can amount
I'm the Earth you walk on seeping beneath your feet
The True Love that's in every true heart that you'll greet
I am the Stars you count; no one can amount
I am the rain falling on a rose
The Feet that twirl you to dance on your toes
I am the Stars you count; no one can amount
I am God
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Ooooo together we were
happy we claimed
my own wishes,
now drive me insane. ooooO
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Just know,
Every time your thinking of her…
I’m thinking of you.
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You never know what you have,
Until it’s gone.
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Bend me
b r e a k me
just as long as we’re together
I can take it
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Will you sleep easier tonight….?
if I told you…. I loved you again!!!
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*Love the one your with!!! *
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Lets 69
chills up my spine
com’on baby
work that g r i n d.
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I woke up not breathing
The shock of you still in my lungs
And my heart wont start beating
Until whats done is done.
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Cross me out completely
Erase me form you mind
Act like I’m not hearing
What you do all night
Lets pretend I’m not crying
Never thought I’d cry for you
I’m sick of drowning slowly
In this growing love for you
I’d die to run back fast
And change the sands of time
To get that bitch
Out of here
I had no idea what
I was leaving behind
* bleed *
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Take them as you wish!
Give credit, when credit is due! <33.
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Just you...Just Me
Looking straight at you looking straight back at
me
Just the feeling tells me that we’re meant to be
Thinking of you from day to night
Just not being with you…the feeling isn’t right
You’re the reason why I wake up
Just knowing I’ll get to see the person I cant get
enough of
When I first saw you, you captured my heart
And when I’m alone its only you that I miss
Being by your side always is what I wish
I've always had you inside my mind
In my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand
times
You kno just wut to say, you kno just wut to do
You make it so much easier for me to say, I love
you
Now theres one more thing i'd like to say
Don’t u ever take your sweet love away
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Just how Much i Care
Some of the things you say to me, hurt me on the
inside,
I want to tell you what I feel, I have nothing to
hide.
I hate waiting two days to see you, even worse
waiting minutes of two,
I wish the time lasted forever, when I’m sitting
with you.
I really want to tell you these things to you
face,
But all I can do is write, in my mind these words
I trace.
All day I think of you, how I wish that you were
here,
When you are here, I have nothing to fear.
There are still many feelings, I cant seem to say,
If only you knew how much more you mean to me, day
by day.
Doesnt Matter that we havent known eachother that
long,
My love for you will never be weak, but will keep
growing strong.
It gets really hard, watching couples pass by in
the hall,
Or seeing two people holding hands, walking
through the mall.
It would be good to see you more than I do now,
There is nothing I can do, I just dont know how.
You mean so much to me, nothing in this world can
compare,
Instead of telling, Ill try to show, just how much
I care.
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What A Waste
I did my best, couldnt ask me for more
I thought we was meant to be, but wen i was there,
you shut the door
Aint no point of tryin if i'm gonna be wastin mah
time
Aint gonna wonder wut u think nemore...the only
thoughts i'll care bout is mine
You act so sweet to me wen we're alone
We have to greatest times talkin on the fone
But then we chill with friends and its a whole
different story
I go over to say hi and u act like you dunt even
kno me
Well i had enough of this shit...i'm done with it
I got my own life to deal with
I'm just tellin you that your games aint workin
on me
You wasnt no friend...you wasnt mah girl...you was
just a waste of energy
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You mean so much to me...
so much, words cannot explain.
But you just can't see
how much hurt I contain.
You have the key to my heart,
It's your's to hold
Please just dont break it apart...
In this world I am so misunderstood,
but you can make everything go away,
and you are the only one that could.
I have so much to say
but with you,
I get lost into your ----- eyes
and forget what I was going to do.
If you only knew...
How much Hell I went though,
and how you made me believe in the heaven's above
Or believe in falling in love...
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And the danger
of you finally being able
to actually see me.
I cannot see, your intentions,
you lie behind a mountain
I cannot climb...
And I'll stay here
while you leave me.
And the shock will
cease to numb me.
And I love you, but you hate me.
I can't find a way to be free.
And i'm entangled, by the hopelessness
of your love, and your
happiness.
Go and abandon me, I will be free.
You weren't who I thought
you'd be and I'm angry.
but I love you..
So I will sink down and lie here,
all was my fault..
right?
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Someday I'll find a way,
A way to say what I want to say.
Someday I'll find a way,
A way to say that you know me
More than any other.
Someday I'll find a way,
A way to say "You'r the One".
Someday I'll find a way,
A way to say my serects to you.
Someday I'll find a way,
A way to say it was all worth it in the End.
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Goodbye Hurts More Than Anything
Especially When Deep Down You Know
Your Never Going To Say Hello Again....
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all her frnds have a good time
wen she sits at home and crys
wen it comes to her all her frnds are blind
she wishes it all will end saying ,why cant i die
They say they care
But theyll never know
With all the things she always bares
shes never gone this low
To hert herself
And take that knife
Hide it on a shelf
Only to take away her life
As she bleeds to death
You see a smile on her face
She only has one breath left
And her heart is beating a lower pace
As she falls to the ground
And her life is taken away
You see her laugh with no sound
..She never thought id end this way..
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she cuts her rist
takes a shower
as she sits
crys longer then an hour
walks to the school
adults stare
she was never really cool
friends give her a glare
goes back home
does more cutting
as she sits alone
all the doors are shutting
sits in her room staring at the wall
with her long brown hair
and her legs that are tall
shes soo pretty, but dosnt care
teachers call
worries wat she does
when she brings sissors to the bathroom stall
comes out crying
blood aborbing her shirt
as shes getting closer to dieing
she falls sratight into the dirt
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Every night
I sit and cry
Thinking about those times
We spent together
Holding hands, laughing and piggy-back rides
So hard to remember the good times
So easy to remember the bad
I remember the nights
Of screaming and yelling
Two parents laying in separate beds
I was so lost and confused
But, oh I sure get it now
I remember that sunny day
Things were going great
Until I stepped foot in my house
Things were gone,
Clothes, Furniture and Collectibles
I couldn’t believe my eyes
But it was true and it was real
You left and you were gone
It’s been about five years now
You still havn’t fixed yourself
Where are you?
How are you?
How’s life without your family?
And I sit here today
Almost a whole year gone by
Of just silence and invisibility
Just hallmark cards
Every holiday
That’s it
Nothing More
And I’ll sit
And watch many more years
Of no sight or sound
Of each other
Go by
Oh, I’ll sit and watch the wind blow
As the years go by
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One Special Wish
There is this girl who is so pretty,
So funny and loveable.
But she feels so much shame and pity,
And feels so hateful.
She doesn’t understand why,
She has nobody to love, when she is so nice and sweet.
She sits and begins to cry,
And dreams, only if there was this boy, whom at the time they meet,
He will be the first to see these great qualities.
He loves her, holds her tight, hugs her and gives many sweet kisses,
Laughing, having fun and making many memories
Trusting each other and making many promises.
But then she realizes she’s dreaming,
Sighs and wishes it was real.
She looks out the window and sees the stars and starts screaming,
"Oh stars please make my wish come true and give me the love I should feel."
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Im gonna draw a picture
A picture with a twist…
Ill draw it with something sharp
Ill draw it on my wrist…
And as I paint this picture
A fountain will appear…
And as this fountain flows so red,
My pain will disappear..
I left my life today
Everything is gone
Did it have to end this way?
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Ive hurt u once again
And I don't know what to say
Making you cry is drivin me insane
Im sorry for what ive done
And how I make u feel
Its sad to say
But all the words are real
I see you n I cry
Because I hate the way u are
I see u fading away
Just like a fallin star
But why are you so stupid
Why can u do things right
I judge u so harshly
And I cant seem to stop
Everything ull ever do
Will never be enough
I set u up to fail
Make my expectations to high
And any beg for forgiveness
Will always be denied
Im your toughest critic
Im so very unkind
I cant help myself
Im letting my feeling unwind
Im lovin u so much
But hate u the same
I try to be nice to u
But I simply cant refrain
Deep inside im sorry
For everything I do
Ive made ur life a living hell
Making a fight to continue
Youre really a great person…
Its something I have to confess
Im sorry ive hurt u so badly
Trying to make u the best
Im so sorry for everything
Its so hard to apologize
Im apologizing to myself
That's what ive realized….
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Searching,
forever searching
Looking,
but never finding
Day and Night,
my eyes roam the worl
Searching,
not knowing how to end
this search for myself....
If i cant stop one heart from breaking
I shall not live in vain
If i can ease one life the aching
Or cool one pain
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again
I shall not live in vain
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If you have had
your midnights
you have drenched
your beaten guts
with tears
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I sing you,sunrise and love and someone to touch
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somtimes i feel like i will never stop,just go on forever,Till one fine morning
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when nothing is happening
somthing is stacking up to happen
when it happens
somthing pulls back not to happen
while pulling back
stacking up happens
when it has happend somting pulls back
while nothing stacks up
then nothing is happening
then somthing stacks up, pushes foward and happens
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FAULTS!
they come to tell you faults to me
they named them over one by one
i laughed aloud when they were done
i knew them all so well before
they were blind,to blink to see
your faults had made me love you more..
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He's bound to my wrist,
He's bound to my heart....
His name I write, it's not a good start......
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I learn something new everyday. From you I learned life has its good moments.
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Do you really still love me after you cheated on me all those times?
You say you do, but I don't belive it.
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"breaking up wasn't the hard part, knowing how much i still loved him was"
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You took the 'L' out of lover and now its 'OVER'
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Bitter sweet memories that is all i am taking with me so good bye, please don't cry, we both know i'm not what you, you need, and I will always love you.
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you broke up with me for her,now with her your cheating once again,i still love you,but you just want to be friends...
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I studied books. i studied the grass. i studied all the curves along your a**
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"With you or whoever but never forever"
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"Dreams are repressed desires that we wish we could have"
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1 plus 1 equals 2
2 plus 2 i mean
i love u
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Happy Birthday To You,
Happy Birthday To You,
Happy Birthday Dear Random Person,
Happy Birthday To You,
Im Singing This Song,
Cuz Im Smokin A Bong,
And i Want You To Know,
Its Your Birthday,
We Arent Ganna Party On Your Birthday!
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I will not say good-bye in June
for it won't be the last time I see you
only my last day walking the halls of this school as a student
you say it won't be the same
and I say you won't notice after a while
you'll be having too much fun
never say good-bye
it sounds too final in my ears
don't worry if you cry
there's no need to feel bad
for it will be a sadly exciting time
always remember,
never say good-bye
for good-bye means forever
and this is not forever - aww somting else for graduation....OR fort me going to a diffrent school next year...
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lets discuss our right and lefts, your rght i left :P
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Pain runnin deep w/ wounds never 2 be seen
with mascara runnin down her cheeks,
weepin for the hope she once held
weepin for the cries never heard
weepin for the souls never to know,
weepin for the future she once sought.
rewrite history, just a dream..
this frenzy they're all in
is so distant to her,
swept away inside her,
she stares back at her eyes
imagining it all away, her true friends
are all there when her eyes are shut.
Close off her soul, her heart,
you'll never enter here..
Life.. very cold, love, even worse.
Understanding her...
understanding a life,
so hard and true, but seeming so
simple and bright...
but a darkness sleeps inside
intoxicating all her soul and those around..
Do you dare find out, what those
marks came from?
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Hide the pain, smiling face
Never happy, cries behind a mask
the mask is stuck, won't come off
I laugh, I joke, I talk a lot.
All an act, no one can see
My real face or the real me
Some have fianlly caught on,
Took them long enough
They try to remove the mask
But its been on too long.
I'll be buried with the mask still on
No one will know that its me
That I was happy, only happy in my death
Behind the mask, they can't see,
Was a real smile on the real me
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Standing in front of a mirror
wathcing tears run down my face
i wish my life was clearer
i want to start at a dif. pace
Body hearting on the inside
i hear people screaming
i dont know why
i wish life could be redeeming
Each day i sit and cry
i want to stop all this pain inside
each day i get closer to die
i never meant to lie
People stare at me
as a i walk by
i wish i could fly away like a bee
or atleast try
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so i lay my head back down
and I lift my hands and pray
to be only yours i pray
to be only yours i know now
youre my only hope
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roses are red
violets are blue
trash is dumped
and so are you
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I know if I stay, Ill just be in YOUR way , So ill just leave.....
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i guess the most that i can do
is make a call and tell you the truth
still don't know where to begin, i'll just leave it at this,
i'm sure you always feel my eyes on you
but i hope that you will never feel unwanted
i hope you know
you're my favorite thing.
so here i am
counting down the days.
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Every time I try to make you smile
Youre always feelin sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh
You cant
Youre too tough
You think yore loveless
Is that too much that Im askin for?
.......
Can't you see that you lie to yourself?
You cant see the world through a mirror....
It wont be too late when the smoke clears
Cause I I am still here
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And I Wanna Believe You
When You Tell Me That It Will Be Okay
Ya, I Try To Believe You
But I Don't
When you say that it's gonna be
It always turns out to be a different way
I try to believe you
Not today
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the trouble with love is..it can tare u up inisde...make your heart belive a lie...its not in ur heart its in ur soul...you never get a say at all.....
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tell me what u thought about when u were gona and so alone
the worst is over you can have the best of me
we got older but were still yung
we never grew outa this feeling that we woudlnt give up
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Someday I'll find a way,
A way to say what I want to say.
Someday I'll find a way,
A way to say that you know me
More than any other.
Someday I'll find a way,
A way to say "You'r the One".
Someday I'll find a way,
A way to say my serects to you.
Someday I'll find a way,
A way to say it was all worth it in the End.
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he holds me when i start to cry,
makes me smile with just his eyes,
shares my hopes, my dreams, my fears,
wipes away all my tears, i love him without a regret,
i just haven`t found him yet..
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im a daughter hiding my depression
i am a big sister making a good impression
i am your friend acting like im fine
i am a teenager pushing her tears aside
i am the girl sitting next to you
i am the one asking you to care
i am your bestfriend hoping you`ll be there
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-BOY: i SAW HER TODAY
GiRL: i SAW HiM TODAY
-BOY: iT SEEMS LiKE iT`S BEEN FOREVER
GiRL: i WONDER iF HE STiLL CARES
-BOY: SHE LOOKS BETTER THEN BEFORE
GiRL: i COULDN`T STOP STARiNG AT HiM
-BOY: i ASKED HER HOW THiNGS WERE GOiNG
GiRL: i ASKED ABOUT HiS NEW GiRLFRiEND
-BOY: i`D CHOOSE HER OVER ANY GiRL i`M WiTH
GiRL: HE`S PROBABLY REALLY HAPPY RiGHT NOW
-BOY: i COULDN`T LOOK AT HER WiTHOUT STARTiNG TO CRY
GiRL: HE COULDN`T EVEN LOOK AT ME
-BOY: i TOLD HER i MiSS HER
GiRL: HE DOSEN`T MEAN iT
BOY: i MEANT iT
GiRL: HE DiDN`T MEAN iT
-BOY: i LOVE HER
GiRL: HE LOVES HiS NEW GiRLFRiEND
-BOY: i HELD HER FOR THE LAST TiME
GiRL: HE GAVE ME A FRiENDLY HUG
-BOY: THEN i WENT HOME AND CRiED
GiRL: THEN i WENT HOME AND CRiED
-BOY: i LOST HER
GiRL: i STiLL LOVE HIM
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"better off apart"
i know that you love me
and i should too.
though, i'm only making you happy
but i just can`t force myself on loving you..
i`ve already hurt u once,
and i aint gonna do it again.
`cuz if i played your heart,
i might lose all of my friends..
i`m tired of people telling me,
i know they`re just trying to help.
but it just drives me crazy.
i`ll be in scattered pieces and ready to melt..
i need more time to think,
please give me some space.
and if i had that chance,
i'll tell it to your face..
it`s like sayin:
"the more you chase me & go after me,
the farthest & fastest i`ll be running away.
but if you just stay still & remain,
maybe i might come running back your way.."
it really hurts to say this.
i know..
though it`s coming from my heart.
i think it`s better off...
if we are apart.....
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gettin` physical baby,
and u drop me like its hot.
i can go down low,
and u be straight on top.
i like ur lips
cuz it tastes like chocolate.
rippin` all of my clothes off,
nuthin`s stoppin` it.
u can get a scoop
of what they call icecream
gettin` hot
and i like it real hard in between.
i can get so wet
when ur teasin` me,
so come and ride me good
and start pleasin` me.
i can come real hard
and baby that aint no lie.
if u duin` me good
u know u'll make me cry.
don`t be ashame if we gettin` nasty,
gotta stop wastin` time
so come and fuck me..
..ooohhh, there u go daddy
hit my ass like that.
fuck me in the front,
but u know i like it from the back.
and i know that u like with some peaches `n cream,
baby make me moan, daddy make me scream!!!!!!
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give it to a boy
a heart is not a play thing,
a heart is not a toy,
but if you want it broken,
just give it to a boy.
boys they like to play with things,
to see what makes them run,
but when it comes to kissing,
they do it just for fun.
boys never give their hearts away
they play us girls for fools,
they wait until we give our hearts,
and then they play it cool.
you will wonder where he is at night,
you will wonder if he`s true,
one moment you will be happy,
one moment you will be blue.
if you get a chance to see him,
your heart begins to dance.
your life revolves around him,
there`s nothing like romance.
and then it starts to happen,
you worry day and night.
you see, my friend, you`re losing him.
it never turns out right.
boys are great though immature.
the price you pay is high,
he may seem sweet and gorgeous,
but remember, he`s a guy.
don`t fall in love with just a boy.
that takes a lot of nerve.
you see, my friend, you need a man
to get what you deserve.
so, when you think you`re in love,
be careful if you can.
before you give your heart away,
make sure that he`s a man!
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"please dont let go"
confusing thoughts whirl around inside his head
what am i supposed to do now he said
the only girl in all the world i see
just took the life right out of me
and i can't breathe without you in my arms
i can't see when beauty is all gone
please don't walk away from me he cried
and leave this hole in my heart a mile wide
baby please dont go
i'll pick you up if you're low
just please dont go
tears began to fall from his precious eyes
as he kneeled at her feet he couldn't hold back his cries
she was all that he had that ever made sense
with his life so crazy her love had no expense
but now, here he kneels with the world at his back
because all he had left is stepping off track
and he can't forget the tears that blur his view
he wonders what in the world did he ever do?
and he screams...
i can't breathe
without you in my arms
i can't see
when beauty is all gone
please don't walk away from me he cried
and leave this whole in my heart a mile wide
baby please dont go
I'll pick you up if you're low
just please dont go...
and he whispered...
please dont go...
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"the player"
he'll meet you and sweep
you right off of your feet
he's nice and he's funny,
so cute and he's sweet.
surprisingly,
he likes the same
things as you.
he does all the things
that you love to do.
he's the perfect guy,
the one of your dreams.
you belong together,
or so it seems.
he looks in your eyes,
and he plays with your hair.
he tells you that he'll always be there.
his touch is so soft,
his hold is so tight.
his words are so soothing,
his kiss is just right.
you think that you love him,
you give him your heart.
little do you know
he'll tear it apart.
you'll do what he wants,
you know it's not good.
you told him to slow down,
and you think he understood.
you let it slide by,
he's just havin fun.
you'll learn to like it as time goes on.
he's taken your heart,
and locked it away.
and you see him
with a different girl the next day.
you cry and you grieve,
but then you forgive.
he won't do it again
for as long as you live.
at this point
you've fallen into his trap.
he has all control,
when you’re on his lap.
you believe he's sorry,
you’re together again.
you give him a chance,
he's your only friend.
he got what he wanted,
accomplished his goal.
he still has your heart,
which he evilly stole.
he's taken your purity,
you still can't believe.
you feel hurt, and cheap,
and extremely naive.
you know he's an ass
but you still want him back.
and you grieve
about all of those
qualities you lack.
all you wanted
was to have some fun.
now you wish
that this whole thing
had never begun.
you wish that one day
you'll see him cry.
that one day
he'll know how he killed you inside.
but you know that he won't,
cuz he's numb to pain.
he'll be with some girl,
while you cry and complain.
beware of players.
they'll steal your heart.
and they'll give it back
once it's all torn apart.
don't let them suck you back
into their game.
cuz once you lose,
your never the same.
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"our memories will never end"
i remember when i met u
the smile on your face,
seems like a million years ago
a different time and place.
i remember when & i kissed you
the warmth inside my heart,
i thought it'll last a lifetime,
i swore we'd never part.
i thought about the future,
i started making plans,
forever i'd be your woman forever
you'd be my man.
we went places together
so that everyone could see,
the man that i want to share
the rest of my life with me
i told u that i loved you
i told u that i cared,
i told u if u were falling
just look back & i'll be there.
i know i didn't have all the answers,
sometimes i only guessed,
but through it all i have to say
"i always tried my best".
i wasn't always perfect,
i wasn't always right,
i know sometimes
i wasn't even worthy in your sight.
i know i took it for granted
the love u had to share,
all i ever wanted
was for u to know i cared.
our lives have changed directions
as sometimes lovers do,
often time & days change
and pave a path that's new.
sometimes i often wondered
just what lies ahead,
sometimes i'd like to turn back time
and take back what i said.
we've both gone different places
we've both gone different ways,
i know sometimes i let you down
when trouble came our way.
i know sometimes
i did things you didn't comprehend,
but through the years & all the tears
our memories will never end...
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"FORGET jeff"
FORGET the things jeff used to say,
remember now jeff's gone away.
FORGET the times that went so fast,
FORGET jeff's love which now is past.
FORGET the things we used to do,
remember now jeff loves her too.
FORGET the love that we once shared,
FORGET the fact that jeff once cared.
FORGET the way jeff said my name,
remember now things are not the same.
FORGET the talks that we once had,
FORGET the thought, it makes me sad.
FORGET i said i would wait,
remember now jeff's love is hate.
FORGET jeff when they played our song,
FORGET i cried the whole night long.
FORGET jeff said he'll leave me never,
but remember now, jeff's gone forever......
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"what love is all about"
im givin up on lovin u,
i can't take the pain u've put me thru.
deep down i kno the feelings are always there,
and maybe someday u'll still care.
at least for now i can hide my pain,
i kno if i dont, i will go insane.
the many excuses u have told,
are all gettin lame & really old.
we never talk anymore,
its like a room of ur life.
u've slammed the door,
locked me out,
and now i kno what love is all about..
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"try to move on"
i kno u moved on 2 sum1 new,
but dat doesnt stop my feelings 4 u.
wen i see ur face each day,
its hard 4 me to look away.
bcuz i now we wer meant 2 be,
but u took ur luv away from me.
where do we go wrong after all we've been thru,
i hav so many memories all bcuz of u.
every1 was against us from da start,
but i still loved u with all my heart..
we've been thru everythin:
all the heartaches & lies,
i kno u still care,
i cud see it in ur eyes...
i'll luv u more dat u'll ever kno,
dats y its so hard 4 me to let go.
i wish i cud jus 4get bout u,
but dats sumthin i cud never do.
ppl dont understand wut dey dont see,
der was so much luv between u & me.
we had a luv dat was so tru,
but u've lost it 2 sum1 new.
now luv has no meaning since u've gone away,
i miss all da things u used 2 say.
ur my 1st tru luv i've ever new,
and my heart will never stop luvin u.
but things hav changed & now ur gone,
i guess its tym 4 me 2 try moving on.
it will be hard i kno its tru,
but always remember, jeff...
i'll always luv u..
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"cant get enough of you"
u kno u broke our friendship apart
but wut u didnt kno, u also broke my heart
all i wanted was a tru friend
but all u did was jus bringin it to an end
u always said u'll be on my side
but all u did was jus makin my feelings slide
u knew wut u did was wrong
u wanted to be ryt all along
i tried to make things ryt
but all u did was create a big fight
wut u said was that u wer my friend
and what i said was i'll be there till duh end
now u see wut u put me thru
i just cant get enough of u...
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"would you wait till my life ends"
im young and depressed
with lost of hope
i dont know what to do
i dont know where to go..
i tried my best to succeed in life
but it all comes down to one thought:
suicide..
fear of moving on,
getting hurt again
being talked about,
from your closest friends.
the ones you loved so much
leaves you.
parents dont understand
some people even hates you.
and yet, you still dont know what to do.
your heart has been broken into two..
a thought comes to mind:
what if i commit suicide?
would everyone repent
on all the things they said?
picture me dying slowly,
sick in my bed?
will that be the only time
you'll be a friend?
would you wait till my life just ends????
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"why"
y didnt u tell me u had a girl
how can i show myself 2 dis whole world
y didnt u let me kno?
now she's fucking buggin me
callin me a skanky bitch ass hoe..
tell her to stop her trash,
sayin she wana kill me
ooohhh... was that a threat?
bitch, kiss my fucking ass!!!
all those rumors, lies, u kno that aint tru
nuthin happend, we didnt fuck
even if it was jus me & u..
but y did u jus let her do dis 2 me
she dont kno shyt, she wasnt even der 2 see.
how am i making myself look stupid?
u do kno it wasnt jus me.. stil remember wut u did?
i asked u about it, but u denied it.
i aint stupid yo! caught u red handed!!!!!
i shouldnt be sori, i wouldnt be fake
everythin will be alryt, it was jus a lil mistake.
but i want 2 kno the answer. i dont wana miss..
let it out thru ur lips jus lyk dat kiss....
dont get away wid it
stop tryin 2 hide..
but please tell me...
WHY?
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"as long as i have you"
i want to say i love you,
but im afraid you'll laugh.
and if you laughed when i told you,
it would break my heart in half.
i want to do more things with you
because i love you so,
and if i asked you to do these things,
i'd die if you said no.
i want you to love me,
as much as i love you.
and if you said you hated me,
i dont know what i'd do.
my love for you is like a stream
that runs forever true,
and my stream of love will never run dry
as long as i have you..
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confusing thoughtz running thru my mind,
i cant think anymore.. am i wasting my time..?
i wont forget that smile on your face
for each memory of you will never erase..
always remember that one halloween night
everyone of us was full of excite..
though you havent accomplished your dreams, your goals,
but always remember, we'll miss you from all of us all.....
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"im over it"
as i sit i wonder y u meant so much to me,
i wonder how my thoughts wer clouded so I cud not see,
behind those georgeous snowflake eyes n dat punk rock smile,
its a face no 1 has seen in somewhat of a while.
although ur humor makes me laugh,ur loving made me cry,
bcuz ur loving's pure bullshit, your words wer full of lies.
for a while i fell for it believing it was true,
i wasted my tym day in n day out falling more for u.
but then 1 day sitting around i came upon your lies,
my heart jumped back a beat or 2, tears came to my eyes.
devistation was in my heart, weight upon my chest,
but then i fucking realized, i realized all the rest.
your an ASS; your not for me; keep ur worthless lie,
i KNOW im gonna be alright, u'll never see me cry.
even though ur smile melts, it makes me wanna say,
IM OVER IT CANT YOU SEE? SO GO THE FUCK AWAY!!!
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"respect urself"
girl you look nasty you need to go home,
go back to your closet and put some clothes on,
that's not sexy it definitly ain't cute,
did you steal that off a prostitute,
why you gotta disgrace yourself girl,
by displaying your booty to the whole world,
you wonder why they call you a slut,
maybe they see every inch of your butt,
the amount of guys staring is always large,
then they ask how much you charge,
that ain't cool they think you a hoe,
your whole wardrobe has got to go,
i'm not a hater but i agree with the rest,
when they say damn she forgot to get dressed,
so remember the words that i say cause they're true,
you'll get no respect if you don't respect you.....
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I like to say fuck, I say it a lot
I say fuck once, I say fuck twice
I say fuck again, it fucking sounds nice
Fuck this, fuck that,fuck her,fuck him
Fuck gee, fuck kris,fuck john, fuck him
Fuck you, fuck your mom, fuck your uncle and dad,
Fuck your car, fuck your house, fuck that dog you had,
Fuck school,fuck work, fuck money, fuck life,
Fuck tv, fuck music, fuck your fucking fat wife,
Fuck everything, fuck everyone,
Fucking blow your brains out with a big fucking gun,
Fuck you once more if you think my poems suck,
Basically,
FUCK YOU all YOU FUCKING FUCKZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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"his nuts stink"
I always wondered y his nuts stink,
he tryd everythin, even soaked dem in da sink,
it smells lyk piss mixed w/shit,
it smells so bad, no 1 can't handle it,
da girls won't touch him n his stinky nuts,
he can't even score w/da nastiest sluts,
he tried cologne, he tried lysol, even listerine,
he tried it all but can't get his nuts clean,
he shaves them and scrubs them, but he still get da funk,
his nuts stink so bad, ppl think he's a skunk,
he went to a doctor, to destinkify his nuts,
but da doctor took one whiff n puked out his fucking guts, he took a steel brush and gave them a good cleaning,
but it just left his sack aching and bleeding,
he jus can't seem to make his nuts smell good,
his neighbors tryd to kick him out of his neighborhood,
his family can't stand to be around him
and plz! get him away from me!!,
becuz his nuts are so fucking smelly,
isnt that sad to have smelly nuts???????
it will always stink no ifs ands or buts.
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"because of you"
tho u hav hurt me numerous times,
i had 2 accept it n liv w/ da pain
but i want 2 thank u
bcuz of u, u made my lyf changed..
u made me stand strong
wen my knees wer weak,
u've opend my eyes 2 see clearly,
u wer my voice wen i cudnt speak..
u made me learn 2 forgive, but not 2 forget
n 2 accept those mistakes dat i once regret..
all those tyms u stood by me
n 4 all da truth u made me see
bcuz of u, i feel my lyf is now complete..
u lifted me up wen i cudnt reach
u made a whole different person out of me
bcuz of u, u made me believe..
u made me learn how 2 feel,
feel da luv dat was so real
bcuz of u, these feelings i had r now concealed..
u gav me da courage 2 liv w/out u,
u taught me 2 b hapi wen i was sad,
bcuz of u, i still hav my lyf
n my heart<3 u once stabbed...
i want 2 thank u,
everythin here is true..
i was blessed bcuz i was loved by u....
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY, jeff!
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"wut i lost"
wut i lost was duh perfect guy,
oh how u hurt me so bad wen you sed
goodbye..
wen u sed dat, i didnt kno wut to do.
i felt lyk my lyf was over
bcuz i didnt have u..
u showed me your luv as much as u cud,
u made me feel lyk
u wer duh one that always wud.
since i've lost u, ders sO much i miss:
those lucious lips dat i luvd to kiss!
duh way u hugged, duh way u held;
duh way u lookd, even duh way u smelled..
ur boOtiful brown eyes dat lookd at me to stare;
oh how i miss ur fingers runnin thru my hair..
i missd everythin dat has to do wid u,
but its all dun wid bcuz u lyk sum1 new..
i want u to kno dat i still luv u wid all my heart<3,
maybe its best dat wer apart.
hopefully in duh future, we will get bak 2gether.
i will do anythin n everythin to make u hapi forever!
i luv u sOoOo much that only god knows;
i hope that this poem make it show...
dedicated to: n*** g*****!
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she acts real innocent,
deep inside she's all fake.
she acts real plastic
with that perky smile on her face.
some people call her a slut
for fucking so many guys.
you might see five guys
fukin' her up in one night..
every morning, every day
she comes talkin' to me.
i cant stand the smell of her breath
damn! its jus killin' me..
how many dicks did she suck?
how many dicks did she fuck?
damn! this fuckin' horny bitch
sure just cant get enough!!..
one night she was just sittin' on the steps,
her pussy was wet.
and when she spreads her legs wide,
the guys were terrified!
in between her legs,
tell me.. what do you see??
you'll see black shyt sagging,
her loose pussy........
_____ is her name, and she is the bitch!
too bad this fuckin' hoe
just got her ass diss'd.........
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All I hear is the cold wind gusting through my hair,
and pushing through my clothes and seeming to
go right through me...
reinforcing the notion that I am invisible and
nothing to this world.
I feel comfort in the starry night,
wonderous melancholy and sad eyes upturned,
a broken smile, feeling as though this loneliness
is shared and dispersed among the heavens above.
Can I get through tonight without a tear
rolling down the cheek? I pray with all
my might, give me peace, someone, something.
I need to grab a hold, I can see myself
dangling over a cliff leading into something
I created with the help of you.
Sooner or later, something will push me over.
I can already see myself spiraling downward
into pitch black.
Or have I already fallen? Is it because of you?
Theres so many things I cannot tell you,
so many things I wish I had,
so many things I want to show you,
if only you had taken my hand...
Could it be... because of you? | 